ey yo whats up vroh? i didn't expect that my channel to grow like this, 100.000 subscribers! and as requested, here is "draw my life" videos i was born with the name "edho pratama" although i dont understand why "pratama"
Android TV jakarta, because i am not the first child i am the third child different from other children i don't know who is my dad
but it doesn't mean i was born from a stone like sun go kong but, i actually never met my dad i have no recollection of him and i don't want to ask too much to my mom because i know it will make her sad maybe because of that, i become introvert, a quiet child lol.. edhozell is a quiet type? no way! but that's true, i am introvert
and i don't like to tell other about myself that's why i am actually hesitated to make this video although drawmylife is a trend back then i am not really used to tell my private matters to other people and actually my life is not that fun as you guys may imagined so, to be short, my mom raised her children alone and get married again when i am in highschool but then she has to go to other city, papua with her new husband and i am left alone in jakarta.
alone. my brother and sister also scattered i don't have close friends, don't have money no one to depends on, besides myself because i really want to have friends i read a book, "how to win friends" i also tried to change by joining school's breakdance activities from a geek and nerd kid, smart and strict kid i changed into a cool and fun kid with the name "zell"
which is taken from ff8 character that i admire because he is fun and have a lots of friends although inside, i am still a nerd that doesn't know how to interact with others so.... if you guys think i'm annoying, too trying to be fun i am sorry i am just trying to be your friend but, changing into a fun kid doesn't make me have money i still had no money and need to eat
my only capital is my body so i have to sell my self! not to be prostitutes though! i worked with my body as in service cashier at internet cafe also sold perfumes from oriflame, door to door i will work so hard to get money for eat and i remember back then i sold perfumes to a dormitory full of gay people
and it is not frightening, they all are nice and kind and maybe because they pitied me they become my regular customer that's why i am good to act as gay/girl now you know why! with limited money, i tried to survive at noon, i eat as cheap as i can and at night i eat at my friend's place for free everynight actually
and thank's to pepen's mom who gave me free food everynight and took care for me during highschool i graduated from high school and my life is getting better back then i gave dance lesson for highschool kids and in a month i can get rp.3.000.000; - rp.7.000.000; from live in small triplex room beside a small river i can live in room whose wall can be kicked and i passed the exam to universitas indonesia, one of the best college in indonesia and started to live in depok
but then i feel sad and lonely again i don't feel accepted in there because i am not a smart guy anymore i am just a blonde haired breakdancer that got lucky, accepted in ui that's why i forced myself to stay at manggabesar, close to my friends although it took 4 hours to get there to universitas indonesia and back to mangga besar and the lesson only took 2 hours because i don't want to be old in the way i decided to quit the college
and concentrated in giving dance lesson because i often do dance show at sweet 17th party make me interested to be a master of ceremony and thank's god, there is a super nice mc who willing to teach me for free his name is mc freddy every saturday and monday i came to the event that he mc-ing i took note on everything he said the way he talk, intonation, jokes, i memorized it all i know i have to work hard to survive
and then, i became a master of ceremony got a lot of job too!!! my income is getting bigger and i can go to college again at lspr but my succes make me arrogant i feel that i can be a succesful person by myself and with that arrogance, i leave my college once again, and go to japan place where i don't understand the languange and don't know the culture all i know is "miyabi" and "kimochi"
and as the result, i suffered so much in japan me, who with all my arrogance feel that i can survived in japan turned out to be a beggar there i actually sleep in the wood because i am homeless i can't speak japanese, i don't understand japanese, can't read japanese and then i surrender to goverment and got deported back to indonesia started my life from zero casting for tv here and there
from vj mtv, soap show, but no one want to accept me and i even dont have money to rent a room i am homeless in my hometown and i had to sleep in internet cafe and at least, i got 1 mc job and i can use the money to rent a room in that hard times, i watched sinta jojo videos on youtube "keong racun" and i got an idea to make video and then uploaded it to youtube
i remember it clearly, my first view is 30 and that 20 view, i viewed it by myself from using webcam, i learned how to edit videos from youtube videos also and i started to make a pranks team called happy holiday indonesia, with my friends but it then turned out, to make 1 video there are lot of things that i have to do by myself from searching for ideas, making scripts, thinking about visual, making schedules borrow all equipment, permissions, editing the videos, upload, promote in facebook & twitter
and because i got lot of problems from it, hhi started to break down and scattered at this point, i feel my life is a failure i joined a boy band, and it get disband i want a serious love relationship but i got breakoff 2 weeks before pre wedding photoshoot i want to cry, but cannot cry my life is empty i stopped trying to make my life worth it every day i sleep and woke up, hoping my life is a bad dream
in fact, i thought to get away with suicide hollow it feels that there was a black hole in my heart one day i was wandering in central park mall, searching for my friend and by accident, i got lost to the church there and i don't know why, i get in and sit there and suddenly i can cry cry like a crazy people i bet my face looks really ugly back then
to be honest, i don't really understand about faith and religion but after that, i join the church service and i fell my life is not empty anymore i started to look for all the good that i have and i realized that i have to be grateful for my life i have a healty body, skills, smart brain, and i have you guys yeah, you who watched this video because of you guys, who supported me all the way willing to watch my youtube videos
who keep watching although i am just blabbering around who laugh although my jokes is not funny who still watching this "draw my life" video although i am not an actor or anyone famous you are the one that give me energy to life i realize all of this is not because my own power but because god loves me and sent me all the people that make me a better person who give me a mother, my sister aneth, my brother wisnu, my 2 other sister and brother mommy pepen and family
science breaker friends mc freddy happy holiday indonesia friends all my ex-girlfriends vania, laura, all my entertainment co-worker and especially you guys, all zelltroopz and i believe my life is just like yours, not always up, not always down but we can always be happy by feeling grateful and that is the story of my life
i made this video not because i to brag about me or to make you feel sorry for me but i want you who broken home, who feel your life is nothing who worked hard, but always get problems who feel empty in life whatever it is, you are not alone there is god's hand that guide you and protected you it's okay to cry and feel sad, angry, we are human after all but we have to keep trying and praying,
god has a better plan and life for you, at his time once again, thankyou for all of you who subscribe and joined zelltroopz thankyou for being you xoxo
